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im jz too tired....sick and tired of all these.....u jz duno hw to mke me feel beta....bt its all ovr nw....thnx for EVERYTHIN......


enuf of all tat stupid shit...i dun even wana touch on it....yest was kinda weird cz we got traing on tue...brought forward cz on mon i had a date wit ustaz aqiil hayy....heee....ehem2.....terpegun gue....was stunned and speechless whn i heard him selawatt....:)

i duno hw,wat,whn it happen..was really feelin dwn and jz felt lik gng hme...was walkin frm hall 6 onwards..heard zikir and bacaan surah2 whn im lik at hall 4..the syarahan and marhaban thingy was at hall 2...as soon as i enter the hall,my heart and my mind was really blank and i really felt so tenangg...really...nothin was in my head and all i noe is tat i wanted to find a place and sit dwn..even though i dun bring anything to recite....my eyes were lik so watery whn they were reciting doa's for the ones who had gone and for both our parents..really felt it inside........i tink i saw her....my late religious teacher, frm far...bt den whn i strt to blink my eyes again,she's gone..............:( mayb she's dere tats y i really felt it.....i really2 miss her alot and sad to sae,till now i cnt accept that she's gone.....i jz duno y.....jz felt lik i jz met her yest...playin arnd at her hse instead of reciting the quran,ate her keropok at her table without her knowing,play with her fishes......if it wld nt hve been her guidance all tiz while,i wld not hve qatam.....gosh....i jz miss all tat.......:( til nw whn my parents reminds smethin bout her to me,i'll feel tat 'ya allah,dia da takde'..........tts y i bring her everywhr i go...:) smoga roh nek mas ditempatkan di tempat org yg beriman...AMIN........sob sob sob.........:(


i dun feel lik updating mre...til ma next post.........

12:03 AM

~Gaucho~